back from guard duty. whatever sleep i was supposed to get during guard rest intervals was virtually non-existent. it's good to be home again, though i don't know why i feel as if i haven't been home for longer than the past 2 days. weird.

yesterday i received some reliable sources as to where i will probably be spending the rest of my nsf life after oeti. apparently i'm going to a unit, not a base. i'm not liable to disclose yet, since i'm not even supposed to know right now; besides it appears this unit is some stuck-up classified place. i may not get to stay out. but what really bugs me is having to readjust to a totally new environment and new faces again. and trust me i am still slowly adjusting in oeti. i still remember the first day i was attached to selarang camp as a lobo, where i hardly knew anyone i could speak to, and that horrible feeling of loneliness after all the rah-rah brotherhood sentiments in bmt. unit life is probably going to be more siong and i expect i'd have to be more independent and proficient with my technical know-how than if i were posted to a base. based on that last point alone i suspect i'll just get murdered in camp by my commanders and be condemned, never to rise in rank to a 3sg. worst still i'm going to risk meeting people who absolutely irritate me. sigh anyway it's not time to be vexed yet, there's still a couple of months to go before i pop. for starters i think i'd better treasure my time in oeti more, especially the friends i've found in my platoonmates. oh yeah and start listening more seriously to lessons and slack less.

i'm still wondering how to rush down to morris' commissioning parade at ocs on the 28th since it will start before i'm dismissed on that day. i'm interested to see the whole thing but if i have to, i might give up my place.

tomorrow is cny eve.. the atmosphere isn't really up there yet. oh well i'm still looking to forward to the ang pao money, the food, the gambling. not so much the meeting of my relatives though. i know, i'm shallow and i'm an insult to the true festive spirit of the chinese new year. bah. me and my platoonmates alvin and kai ee share the same anti-relatives sentiments. hooray! oh and so alvin was from kcpps too!