and yeah, so i'll be starting to clear my leave tomorrow. actually it feels almost surreal. after the previous weeks of acute anticipation, i find that not going to work tomorrow doesn't feel too normal to me. after all, i'm pretty used to the longer working hours and i haven't taken any off or mc recently either. and i feel like i've left a bit of a mess behind, like i haven't even gotten my overseas leave applied for this weekend (tioman!), haven't surrendered my toolbox which is severely lacking in tools, and i feel like i haven't handed over properly to my understudy and left behind some shit work for him to clear. i'm not surprised if i get recalled to camp pretty often. but at least i feel like i can breathe easier. seriously i should just learn to let go more.