spent the entire morning reading other blogs, adding new blog addresses culled all over friendster profiles to my favourites folder and the most exciting part - gasp - reading my old blog entries. what a novel way to spend a cny morning huh.

as usual i lost at gambling..about 50 bucks. i already have whole-heartedly embraced the fact that gambling luck has eluded me since my early teen years. basically i'm trying to convince myself it's all in the name of new year fun and that it's a once-a-year thing. yeah right.

oh man i really shouldn't be sounding so cynical early in the day. but seriously, instead of the excitement cny used to bring me as a kid, it's evolved into somewhat of a routine. stuff like trying to siam all the relatives by only eating at the table after they're done so they won't get to ask pesky questions like 'why are you so skinny' and 'where's your girlfriend' and 'what do you intend to be after u complete your studies, oh ya you still in ns right'. and watching mindless chinese comedies on tv..which actually has become one of my fave parts of cny (besides the ang pao money of course).

really. i think the most interesting interactions i had yesterday was with my eldest cousin's cute little tot, who's 3 and getting really naughty and increasing his spoken vocabulary really fast, and a fierce stray kitten, which i became an expert at taming. if only i had a digital camera.

i don't really know how to converse with my cousins anymore, not that i really ever knew how. those slightly older than me are engaging in all the adult-worldly topics..i don't know, somehow it's all very pretentious to me but maybe they really do enjoy it. i'm not even talking with those slightly younger than me, who once were my playmates..can't think of any conversation topics. maybe that's why i now feel more comfortable making small chatter with the youngest. yet i begin to wonder if i'm beginning to see cny through adult eyes..

not a boy, not yet a man. lol. how did this post become so long...