another long pause from blogging again huh.

let me explode a bit first..
last week was damn stressful but the past two days have been total shit. fucked up for lack of a better phrase. doing cos duty sucks big time. office politics abound and selfish people around. listening to stories from the (few) nicer guys around, i don't know how i will be able to take all the possible backstabbing in the future. life is good here as an nsf. i can't complain about that. but how can i ever possibly really like it here?

been working myself into some sort of a depressed mood all weekend. i realise how untrusting i've suddenly become. i can't help but occasionally question a person's motives for trying to get close to me. am i just reading too much into people's casual comments? i can't help but feel some people befriend others just so that they can establish diplomatic ties and use them someday. phoniness. i'm no saint all right but that is not something i am capable of doing right now. maybe that is why i'm morphing into some sort of antisocial freak day by day.

i am so like holden caulfield from catcher in the rye right now. and that is not a good thing for sure.

..and then the better things that happened outside of it last week.

_shrek 2 was still lots of fun thought the originality factor isn't quite there compared to the first part. nice animation, fun soundtrack, loads of pop culture references. i like how the fairytale stereotypes are reveresed. like how the fairy godmother isn't so good. and how the big bad wolf is actually a good soul with gender confusion.

_the mln seminar i went to with zf on sunday wasn't quite as boring as i had thought it would be. sort of interesting and quite motivational in a way. though at the beginning i thought the whole affair was quite fake, the way people shouted their 'yes'es and slogans everytime the speaker needed affirmation from the crowd.

_me and wm are very tempted to get the curious incident of the dog in the night-time as well after we went borders last saturday.

_2046 premieres at cannes. looks tempting. come quick to singapore.

_hmv's seventh anniversary sale. finally they did put some good cds on the racks that scream sale. i can already almost see myself there tomorrow after work. pop goes the wallet.

_ai3 finals tomorrow. i haven't been keeping up but maybe i'll just tune in to see fantasia win. at least that's what the whole world says.

june's calendar-of-events
faye's concert! i can hardly wait. i am going to have to listen to all her songs again. hope i don't get cos or guard duty or something like that. no way am i passing on this after missing on david tao's concert last year.

batam trip! seriously i don't really like the idea of going there but anyway i'd go if i can, since it's a family thing. but there's a good chance i can't go since that weekend falls within mob recall period. which isn't such a fun thing either.

driving basic theory test! haven't studied yet. will end up last minute as usual but i hope this is the start to my license in a few more months. wake me up, shake me and motivate me!

tam's singapore idol audition! hope he gets through the preliminaries at least. it's too early to say. and i really hope he manages to snare the gala tics to spiderman 2's premiere also. weee...