this is going to sound depressing. i don't really want my blog to always be like this. but i can't help feeling this way.

i feel lousy, heavy, frustrated at the same time.

i'm slowly realising. i'm getting good at clever banter with people i don't know too well. but i can hardly manage to keep a simple hearty conversation with some supposed 'good friends' going. i feel so tired trying so hard and for so long. maybe some people just will never click.

i am seriously reconsidering my uni choices again. the 2003 a level results were out on friday. and i don't have much time left.

too much on my mind as usual. everybody says that. i know. but i just can't help it.